Why I Am Doing What I Am Doing…

When I was growing up, both my parents were at the heights of their career.  Dad was busy travelling the world, fulfilling his duty as the country’s liaison on whatever committee that he was in, besides going back to his constituency, to fulfill his role as the elected representative.  Mom was busy crunching numbers for one of the largest shipping company in the country, besides making sure that all her 3 kids’ needs are being met.

I am not complaining that they are too busy to spend time with their kids.  In fact, I am thankful that they have done what they did, as I would not be the person that I am today without them.  They have thought me to work hard in order to get the things that I want.  They have also provided me with the best education that I can ask for.  They have never objected the choices that I have made in life.  In fact, they have provided me with the guidance that I needed to succeed.

With that, I am truly grateful to have such great parents.

Now, I am trying to become one too.

Since Noah was born, I have been missing many of his development milestones due to work.  I had to leave him for almost a week when he was only 6 months old for a business trip to Istanbul.  It really broke my heart to leave my baby at that point of time, especially when he was still fully breastfeeding.  That was the turning point for me as a mother.  After that I had promised myself to never put work before my family’s needs.

However, it was really hard to juggle between the pursuit to become a successful career woman and a great mom.  I again failed to stand by my promise to myself and had succumbed to the career demand.

2 more years had passed and I am still holding the same position in my career (though in a different organisation).  I am still not earning as much as I think I am worth (call me ungrateful, but I seriously think that I am worth more than what I am earning currently).  Despite being a specialist in the area that I am in, and saving the company thousands (or even millions) of ringgit in consultancy fees (they have reduced the need to hire consultants since I joined), I have yet to receive THE recognition that I think I deserve.

Hence, I am back to the point where I have sacrificed my time for my family over something that is not truly rewarding.

That is the reason why I have embarked on this Premium Beautiful journey.  Charting my way on the road less travelled.  It has been 8 great months and the reward is really fulfilling.

Even our Prophet Muhammad s.a.w once said that 90% of our rezeki comes from business (90 % rezeki yang Allah berikan kepada manusia di dunia ini, adalah melalui perniagaan).

In this business, you get what you earn.  The more effort you put into the business, the higher the return.  You are your own boss.  You determine your own income.  Hence, there is no more issue of not getting what you deserve as you determine your own destiny.

In my pursuit to become a Mumpreneur, I am giving my everything right now to ensure that I will be able to spend more time with Noah and his soon to be born brother (insyaAllah) in the near future.  I am determined to make sure that I will be available to send and pick-up Noah to and from his pre-school  on a daily basis, have every meal with him, and give him and his brother all the attention that they need and deserve.  Also, I am determined to give them the best that they deserve.

I am auwed by other successful Mumpreneurs in the Green Leader Group such as the great leader, CDM Hanis Haizi (mother of 2) and CDM Salha Zain (mother of 2) who had managed to juggle between being a great business women and super mom.  They are such inspirational Mumpreneurs.

With God’s willing, I pray that I would be able to follow their footsteps real soon.


My all time favourite poem from a great poet that had been my inspiration throughout my journey in life since back in 2006.

The Road Not Taken  by Robert Frost

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.


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